A: the joy I got our of being conscious of someone else’s needs enough to reach out to them made me feel so much better about the person I am. And look. There is always going to be more plays. There is always going to be more work. There are not always going to be people around you who love you. You have to invest real honest effort in them as much as you invest in yourself. So yeah. I am working on that. That’s where I am. Navigating on making myself a full person.
A: Italy. Namibia. Djibouti. Argentina. Some trash pile. I don’t give a shit where I am. I just want to be happy. If I wake up two years from now and I’m like holy shit I hate theatre, and totally burn out and need to go be a dental assistant somewhere. Like fine. I just want to be happy. I don’t have a judgement. I think Coya Paz said this to me when I graduated. “You are never going to feel ready.” As I was approaching graduation I was so nervous. I just wanted to be ready. It’s a fucking Tuesday. It’s just another day. You are never going to wakeup and be like, “Oh my god I am so ready for all the challenges of this world!!” You know? So I think I have now translated that idea to also be like look if you want to change your mind- change your mind. Who the fuck cares. It’s your life.
